in all honesty...

:(

that face pretty much sums up how i feel today...


i dunno..im just thinking about everything and ive figured that i am both happy and dissatisfied with where i am at, at this point in my life...theres alot to it..like i still just want to be a kid, youthful and playful..but most importantly CAREFREE. that just dont cut it no more tho. its heartbreakin actually..things like debt and careers are looming over my shoulder and seem to keep reminding me that we are living in the real world..but i guess its true...life is a beautiful struggle..struggle to belong..struggle to survive..struggle just to be happy..and in all honesty..im being wayy too dramatic right now..and its super gayzee..but i feel that i need to just let it out so i can bounce right back on the bitches like magic. lol. but i guess the biggest thing that i hate at this current moment..is that i have to know exactly what i want to be...it takes alot for me to admit it..but I DONT KNOW. fuckkk that shit hurts to admit..but i guess i gotta realize and just let it be knownst so that i can do something about it..i mean..i have avenues that i am thinking about going up...but in all honesty..im frightened of picking the wrong one..ive always been super indecisive and it is really kicking my ass right now..i guess i just have to take the leap and learn from my mistakes..my life aint slowin down..so i better speed the fuck up..i wanna be done with school already..or do i even want to be in school?! (shut the fuck up marcus) but yea..i was ontrack..but ive slowly gotten off...its time to get on track and do it big tho..theres so much to life and i feel like im at a huge hurdle right now..theres so many things i need to take care of..i dunno..i just reallly reallly want to live a honorable resppectable life..thats all i care about..something i can be proud of..i guess i gotta go out and do it now..


no matter what im gonna do good for myself..i promise this to myself.




its only the first half of the day...heres to optimism and the rest of the dayy being wonderful. :)